Third time’s a Charm! 9/18/2006

Ok, I'm going to OHSU tomorrow for my PICC line, starting the 32-hour blood draws at Midnight, and checking in for my CSS at 6:30 am Wednesday.

Good thing I woke up BING! at 4:30 am High. Of course, not so good to be freaking/tweaking at the grocery store. I started twitching and tweaking just before I started checking out. and the muttering. Me, I was muttering, not other patrons, but I know I was getting some weird looks from my fellow shoppers. I'm just glad I got home before it got bad.

My son greeted me at the door with "oh good, you've got that crazy look in your eye, anything else in the trunk?"

10 minutes later I'm in the full teeth of the freeker/tweeker and I'm talking to Dr. L. He said to Page him the next time this happened to me, so I did. I know I wasn't very coherent, but possibly more importantly, HE knows I wasn't very coherent.

So, I just got back from a blood draw, nice to see if they caught anything during this latest freaker/tweaker episode. And as usual, it lasted just about 2 hours.

The following IM log was while I was in the teeth of the last freeker/tweeker episode. I was trying to tell my husband that I needed to go back to OHSU to get a PICC line, which he knew, because I’d just spoken with him about it on the phone. It didn’t matter, my brain didn’t work. Each key stroke was so very hard to make. Normally I type about 90 words a minute, not terribly accurate, but I’m a light touch. When I was trying to type that conversation. I was mashing each and every letter. I was crushing each letter, with all the force my body could muster

I say:

mike ike ike

I say:

get opc line tomrrow

Husband Says:

where?

I say:

ohoh oh

I say:

ohsususu

I say:

damn

Husband Says:

You driving down there?

I say:

yes

Husband Says:

today or tomorrow?

I say:

morrow orrwo orrw

Husband Says:

Have you called Tracy to see if you can stay with her?

I say:

nonononoono

Husband Says:

are you sure you are safe to drive

I say:

not sfe to do asny thingthing thing

Husband Says:

have spencer take you to the store then

I say:

just got back

I say:

back back

Husband Says:

oooh okay

I say:

this started ed ed whil I was thereerere

Husband Says:

ooo,

I say:

hes taking me to get t t bloddddd

Husband Says:

okay, good

I say:

att local laaabblablab

I say:

makke it it it stoptoptpppp

I say:

willlll walll wenn gettt backkkkkkkkkk

Husband Says:

Okay

At This point we left to get the blood work done…..

I say:

there is something exquisitely terrifying about not being in control of one's body

I say:

I started to tweak while I was at the grocery store.

I say:

I was praying that I was going to make it home before it really started

I say:

or at least, before it got bad.

Husband Says:

I am glad you made it home safe

I say:

I don't think any of what I typed made sense, did it?

Husband Says:

It did

I say:

I mean, while I was in the teeth of that ... episode

Husband Says:

I know

I say:

I couldn't make my fingers work right. I was pounding the keys, mashing them, smashing and crushing the keys

Husband Says:

I could tell it wasn't easy for you

I say:

I have no idea why I called you to tell you I was calling Dr. L.

I say:

Spud couldn't figure out why I was calling you and not Dr. L

I say:

for for some reason, it was vital that you knew i was calling him

Husband Says:

I understood

Husband Says:

Did you talk with him?

Husband Says:

or with his assistant

I say:

I'm glad someone understood

I say:

stood

I say:

I spoke with him.

I say:

he said it's time to get me cured

I say:

that I wouldn't have to do this much longer

I say:

something about either Lynne will call or I need to call Lynn to get the Picc line set up for tomorrow, and start the draws at 00:01 Wednesday...

I say:

00:01, 00:30, 04:00 and I need to be at the hospital at 6:30 am for admitting...

Husband Says:

Okay

Husband Says:

Getting thursday off isn't a problem. It is the company meeting that I wasn't planning on attending anyway

Husband Says:

I just need to be able to squeeze out Wednesday.

I say:

I'm tired

Husband Says:

I say:

I got up at 4:30

Husband Says:

Oh, I didn't know

I say:

yup, popped High

I say:

BING! I was awake